Life brings with a plethora of experiences, each with a flavour of its own. I wish to share with all my readers these various experiences and observations that I have made during my time here on this planet. They may be funny, thought-provoking or simple reflections. I do hope you will find these enjoyable and interesting.
sometimes sucks. Yes,
it does for all of us. Even when we try to kid each other, trying to
convince ourselves about how "privileged" we are to have
been born human on this planet. Maybe true - sometimes - but not when
one is feeling down in the dumps. When life sucks, some of us do wish
we were never born. We look for some source of inspiration or even
some means of escape, depending on how we are mentally tuned at that
moment. We wonder why we are here at all. We try to comfort ourselves
- try to convince ourselves that there is a reason why we have been
put on earth. I certainly wonder, then, what I am doing with my life.
Still trying to figure out myraison
d'être (reason for existence). There must be some reason which we
don't know I am told. I agree, maybe I shall find my life made a
difference to someone, sometime. But the catch is, it is equally
possible that my life didmake
a difference to someone, somewhere but I shall never know. I was not
meant to know, which means I shall still be left with the question
with which I started out.
saw a lovely card this morning on a networking site which said
don't go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they
just stand there shining.
I guess, since everything happens for good, there is a good reason
why I should be kept within the four walls of the house. Whatever
purpose I was meant to serve will probably be served very well within
those four walls or probably is already being served.
is good, to practice distancing oneself from the egoand
just viewing oneself as a third person on the stage. Stop thinking of
oneself as the "doer". Thinking one is the "doer"
leads to a lot of pain. The moment one switches to thinking of
oneself as the instrument in the hands of the DOER, one realizes that
one is that lighthouse which shines not of its own doing, but only
because the caretaker came and switched on the light. So has my
CARETAKER switched me on, so that I am here to do whatever it was I
was supposed to do. My job is to stand at the edge of the island
shining come rain or sunshine and hope that some boat sees me shining
there and comes in safely to anchor.
yes, I shall stand and shine for all time to come, till the CARETAKER
thinks it is morning and switches off my light.
dear friend for waking me up to reality this morning with your
will certainly carry me a little longer till the next time I wonder
what I am doing on earth. That is part of being human.
don't think it is wrong or bad to ask oneself this question once in a
while. It spurs one on to think beyond the everyday, material
boundaries of what we refer to as "life". It is good to
think of this as being a school, where we come to learn some
an excellent if sometimes a bit ruthlessly harsh teacher. In that
case, I wonder what lessons I have come here to learn from her. One
of the lessons that Life nudges us endlessly into learning is to give
up the EGO. This is true for EACH ONE of us. Till we do so, she just
keeps hurting us so much, that we are forced to sit up and take
is allowed to do that, unlike the kind of school teachers we know).
There are other lessons which are specific for each individual. I
believe in rebirth and karma. So I believe, there were some lessons
from the past that need to be relearned, reevaluated and some tests
to be taken. A couple of important lessons I seem to need to learn
seem to be how to control my anger and how to be patient. I love
Life's teaching methods (yes, even if it means having my head
flattened out every morning) . (As a teacher myself, I can't help examine her methods ).
What she says is: I shall put you in various situations. Firstly try
to figure out what I am trying to teach you. If you can figure that
out, question it. Don't accept anything blindly. However, at the end,
I shall see to it that you jolly well agree with me. I
seem to be a student who sleeps through her lessons. Only on the day
of the exam will it really be revealed what I have learned and what I
due respects to Tennyson: "Our's not to question why, our's not
to reason why, our's but to do and die.